You’ve got to remember that I didn’t know what love was for the longest time. I started to understand it when I was helping people with their contracts. There would be a lot of time spent hooking up clients with people from their past lives based on strong feelings of connection. This idea was planted into my consciousness but I didn’t think it applied to me. Then I started to feel those kind of feelings, but for whom? All I could think of were those pieces that would come flying through and be gone just as quickly. But it was enough. Those pieces would turn out to be the beginning of a romance that would span over thousands of years and culminate as my soul mate relationship with Gwella. How can you fall in love with a piece of consciousness? Ah, that is the golden question! It is first born as consciousness and from this comes energy. Love or polarity exists in all levels of creation whether the existence is material or not. That’s what I learned from my work with contracts. The elements of Time and Space helped create polarization for Gwella and myself. We were so separated by time that it created an incredible yearning. But there was something else going on which Gwella helped me with tremendously. I was stuck. I had no way to enter into the stream of life. I was not in an incarnation cycle. I tried. I had an unsuccessful attempt and then a lifetime as a bird. I was a very special bird I’ll admit but still I was not yet human. Actually it was a woman who released me. More on this later.
#14 When did I realize I loved him?
